There are often times through my life that I think to myself, I wish I'd known growing up what I know now, how different my life could be.
Now don't get me wrong, I know everything happens for a reason and things in our life may change from time to time, including our thoughts and the decisions we make.
I guess this all stems from the whole thing of nearing 30 and still having achieved nothing, especially career wise in my life.
I often think back to my school days and the options I chose at GCSE. If I were to be able to chose them again now, I'd pick completely different subjects, without a doubt. I know I picked what was right for me at the time, but did I really know what was right for me? I had no idea about the person I was, the person I was going to become or even who I wanted to be, not a clue.
I had no idea that I would enjoy crafts and flower arranging. I should have picked art as a GCSE subject, but I hated art.
At college I studied Travel & Tourism, how did I not know that five years down the line I would want to be a florist? The annoying thing is that I still feel like that now, only I can't afford to do the qualification.
Like I said everything happens for a reason. Studying Travel and Tourism gained me a job at Thomas Cook and had I not of got that job I would never have met my husband, so I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, but I just can't help thinking what if I'd done things differently, but then had I of done so would I be where I am now, living in my little piece of the countryside?
There are many paths we take through life, and hopefully I have many more years ahead of me, with plenty more decisions to make. Regardless of whether I will agree that these decisions will be the right or wrong ones in years to come, they will shape my future and my life, now isn't that a scary thought.
~ Gem x
